Speaker used to fear pain and saw role as therapist as alleviating pain. Now sees role as transforming pain into teaching and values pain for growth. No longer takes on clients' pain, celebrates it instead. Views pain as helper and co-therapist, uses it strongly in therapy. Remains calm and excited about transformative potential, despite client expectations. Learned about pain as transformer and portal to consciousness through meditation and spirituality. Does not judge or label clients, has different viewpoint on their journeys. Resonates with idea of clients coming with "beautiful disaster" through mindfulness practices.